Wooo~
Is last day of year 2010.
Going to meet those gays again!
Enjoy your countdown. =)

Clubbing songs rocks!! =)

Tomorrow is last day of year 2010.
Let's recap about what happen during this year.

January - March
Quit my last job.
Happy and unhappy moments with him.

April - June
Break up with him.
Clubbing for the first time.
Found a new job.

July - September
Learn driving.
Toning every weekend.
Got iphone 4 for free.
Genting trip with "ni" family.

October - December
New camera.
Got a polaroid for myself.
Clubbing with gfs.
Gift exchange with "ni" family
Jb trip

Relationship
Thanks for staying my side for the past 3 years.
And we already broke up for 6 months, hope you can find a better one.
I really thankful for giving me happiness and memories.

Friendship
GFs - last long with your bfs!
"ni" family - hope to hang out more together.
Vanessa - 10 years friendship. good luck and hope you can get in to poly.

Career
Want to get more pay job.

This year isn't a good year for me.
Can't blame anyone for anything.
Maybe i just deserve it? O.o
Working was suck at the start, lucky everything turn to be fine now.
And being a single doesn't mean end of the world, maybe at the start i wasn't thinking this way.
But thanks to that bunch of friends.
That's why i can live better now.
Treasure what you have now because happy moments won't last long.
And it will only leave memories. D:

Hope year 2011 will be a better year! =)

Finally got time to blog.

23 dec 10
Went to work as usual.
Working was fun. =)
Home, bathed and off to jk's house for mj session.
Played till 3 am and chit chat till 6am plus.
Had breakfast at mac and went home to bath.

24 dec 10
Went to work without any sleep.
Lucky only work half day nia.
Lunch at astons but couldn't finish.
Played few round of card games and off to meet girlfriends at bugis.
Make up at hotel toilet and slack at NYDC.
Waited for rx to reach and exchange gifts session.
Love them ttm! =)
Took train to clark quay and had dinner at a korea restaurant.
Walked around and decided to go clubbing at night
At TCC slack till 10pm and queue up at rebel.
Lots of people and entry fee super expensive.
Hmm...rx didn't join us because she got leave to and meet her colleagues.
Clubbing was fun with girlfriends.
Let's go again next time! =)
Dance till 3 am and leg was so sore! =(
I walked too fast and didn't realise where my girlfriends went.
Hop on to the cab, reach home and bath and sleep.

25 dec 10
Happy birthday GAY!
Wake up at 10 plus.
Prepare my stuffs and meet xl, wg and jy at mrt station.
Off to sentosa.
And the weather wasn't good at all.
Rain, sun, rain, sun. -.-
What a day!
Bathed and had dinner at harbour front market.
Walked to daiso and buy exchange gifts for the guys.
Disappointed to receive the gifts for them! =(
YOU GUYS SUCK!!! =D
Took to train to kovan and slack at a pub nearby.
Drink, cut cake and photo taking session.
Aftermath went to wg's house for mj.
Took cab home at 6 am plus with jy.

26 dec 10
Slept from 6.30 am till 3pm.
Woke up, cooked maggie mee that wg gave me.
Hmm..the maggie mee is nice. =)
Online awhile and wanted to upload photos.
But i was so damn tired, off laptop.
Went back to sleep at 5 pm.
Till the next morning.
There goes my sunday.
I was at my bed for the damn whole day!
THANKS~
First time of my life, i slept for so damn long lor.

I celebrate christmas day so different this year.
And I really want to thank "him", because I enjoy it alot.
My chirstmas eve with my girlfriends and christmas day with Ni family.
Is just too way awesome for it! =)
Ni family will always be my best friends!
Only friends~

Thanks for everyone advise and I really finally understood it.
Everyone told me how fortune i am because when i am low, there will be always friends there for me.
Yup! What for i hold on it when that person treat me like a dirt.
I realise there are many times, he doesn't treat me as human.
Just let go of everything and live on with my life.
My life is so happy without you! =D
There things you left for me is memories.

Hmm....I love my single-hood life.
What else can i say?
One word - sorry
One word - forget

Thanks for the texts, even though we are not close but ur texts make my day bright. =)

It still hurt!
No matter how many times i read or think back about the past, the pain will always be there.
Is really not easy to heal.
What should i do? =(

How does love change
Is it that easy
I'm left all alone, what am i supposed to do?
Oh baby dont leave me now

Hmm.. Finally went to CDC after mia for 3 months.
Took evaluation test and i pass.
Booked FTT and hopefully that will be earlier slot bah.
Beside me that is a guy taking same test as me, same paper somemore.
I was copying his answer. Yet he got higher than me. =.=
LOL!

Took 93 then 238 then 142.
Super one big round to my house.
Those things that i dislike suddenly I really miss it so much. =(
Just hoping for something, but i know it won't come true de.

Looking at the texts that he sent to me, i find myself being so stupid.
Why i really didn't know something is wrong?
Why i didn't try my best?
Why i still let it end this way?
Why? Why? Why?
I regret a lots of things.
But time won't go back anymore.
Now i only hope that things will get better in time.

What do u do, when u know something's bad for u but u still can't let go?

12-12-10

Nice date ar!
Hmm..Yesterday had a wonderful outing with boss.
Meet up with her at bugis and had lunch at market.
Think is our first time having lunch at market bah. =)
Then walk to sunshine plaza to see whether my camera can fix.
Took photos aftermath was stuck at parkland for awhile because was raining.
Walked to IOI plaza to find her bf awhile.
Then off to sim lim and waste time.
See see look look.
But nothing caught my eye.
Hmm..rot at lasalle and took photos.
Watched narnia at cathay.
Kinda of lame lah. LOL~
Had late dinner at hk cafe.
And went off after that.
Seriously i rot at dhoby ghaut area for whole day sia.
Love going out with boss TTM! =D

Enjoy my weekend again.
Yesterday finally 8 of us gather together and went out together.
Although it was only for awhile, but everything was worth it. =D
Love "ni" family TTM~
Dinner was at ps again, was so troublesome to settle for dinner because those guys can't make up their mind. =.=
In the end, we had Carl junior.
Aftermath walked to parkland for toilet break, and took 147 to kok's house again.
Slack and start playing mj around 2 am.
Played till 6am plus and walked to mrt with JY.
First time walking to mrt with him and took so early train home. =)
Enjoy it too.. HAHAHA~

And there it goes my weekend.

Hmm..i realise i got lots of new things.
First, I got iphone 4 for free.
Second, I brought Polaroid for myself.
Third, I had new camera.
Four, I got one super expensive wallet from my girlfriends.

Starting of the year, was a sweet times.
Middle of the year, was a painful times.
Ending of the year, was a enjoying times.

Thanks for those who are always there for me. =)

Those things i am afraid, might be happening.
And I don't want it to happen.
I am really scare now. =(
Too prevent it, there is only a thing to do.
STOP!
Wondering what should i do?


I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

Is December already.
Year 2010 is ending in 30 days lor.
Sian~ LOL!
I going to get a new camera for myself as a christmas gift.
Thinking that my camera which someone gave me for my 19th birthday present and now is spoil, maybe is fate that our relationship is really ENDED!
So is a good start and telling myself: 旧的不去，新的不来。

Bored at home.
Is saturday yet i dont have program. =(

What's going with my life?
I just can't let you off my mind.
Is there anything to forget you?
I don't know what to do now.
Is been 5 months.
Things wasn't going well in my life.
Do you know how much i miss you?
I know it can't turn back anymore.
And there isn't anything i can do.
Really hate this feeling.....

Really regret alot alot alot. =(


time passed and left
love is faced with a choice
you've become cold and i've cried
the unhappiness at the beginning
you just wrote them on a post card
sometimes love can only be like this it's really painful

what happened, you're tired, hadn't we agreed, to have happiness
i understand, don't say anymore, love had weakened, my dreams have sunk
being happy and not, narrating them one after another, you can't bear it
those feelings of having loved are too deep, i still remember them

you're not waiting anymore, hadn't we agreed, to have happiness
i've been wrong, tears have dried, we've let go, i've come to regret
only that musical box of memories continue to turn
how can it be stopped?

Finally i have time to update my blog.
Last week was super happening week.
Because I celebrate my 21st birthday at home =)
Thanks for those who came to my celebration.
Thanks girlfriends to accompany me and help me with my celebration.
Thanks those "gays" to came down so late.
Thanks vanessa for asking my parents out for photo taking session.
I love you guys. Thanks x10000~~~

Happy 21st Birthday to Me!!!

Will update soon....

8 days
7 days

Hmm..I know what i going to get myself for my birthday gift.
Guess this year will be different from the past 3 years.
I used to have my "Love" one celebrating on my birthday.
And now, I guess i will celebrate at home on 18.
Back to those days.
Hmmm.. kinda miss those days.

Now then i realise how much mistake i made.
Why? And everything is too late to turn back.
I regret it. Why didn't at the start i treasure it?
And when it disappear from my life, I start realise that I am actually had a lot of mistakes.
There isn't anymore chance for me.
失去才来后悔

我还是不敢相信你已经离开我的身边。
你再也不回来了。

希望你不会把我忘掉！

You who won't answer my calls anymore, you who doesn't want to see me at all
No matter how I beg for forgiveness, there's already no use

Waiting by your door, even if you pretend you can't see me
Brushing past my shoulder like seeing a stranger you just met
Waiting until you are willing to hear me say sorry

Looking at my phone ten times a day, even jumping at the slight sound
To find out if you had sent me a text message

Just hope that person is YOU. =(

9 days

Will be better year when i turn to 21?
This year is really suck.
So many shits things happen on me.

Just now was listening to jay chou songs while browsing through my old albums.
And so nice, randomly an qing start to play when i was looking my photos with him.
Nearly tears dropping.
Somehow, i had a bad feeling.
Which I don't like it at all, but what i can do?
I only can remember those good memories with him.
I have to ask myself, am i really let it go?
Sigh~

I shouldn't use such a hurtful word to say it.
After I cool down, i realise i was in the fault.
I am sorry.
Useless

I cant believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
They hurt so bad that they ended our Relationship
I cant believe it four years gone down the drain
How I wished things woulda happened so differently
I tried to say this many times but still you couldn’t see
You kept insisting, and resisting that you would not fall again

Maybe I shouldn't be angry or what.
Thinking those action i did, is really stupid
And things are just repeating again and again.
This is not the first time happening, and why is only me?
Fuck~

I don't deserves any good things happen on me.

Just a urge to MIA now.

Sunday!
I spent my day with my beloved family.
And this is my first day going with my youngest brother too.
LOL~ I know lah.

Birthday is really coming soon.
11 days to go.
Hmm..I got my loves one celebrate advance for me.
So for my actual day, shall stay at home celebrate with my mum bah.
I don't felt disappointed when boss said she can't take off on that day.
So is okay la.
Maybe for the past, i might be disappointed but not longer now.
I don't know whether i should do it anot.
Someone told me to at least ask, if not in the future i will regret.
Even i don't ask, I already know the answer.
Hmmm...haix. Confusing. -.-

This week is super happening.
Especially on FRIDAY!
LOL~ Let's play together, okay?

Everyone got a limit.
I am disappointed for what you did.
Seriously just a word for you - FUCKER!
Whatever things happen to you, i seriously just fuck care.

Shall be a spy for someone! LOL~

What a DAY!
LOL~
Got long weekend for this week.
Yesterday meet up with GFs.
Finally 4 us gather and had a whole day together.
Hope there will more outings to come too~ =)
Happening day too.
No comment about it.
After all, is just nothing. -.-

说 有什么 不能说 怕什么
相信我 不会哭 我不会难过
错 谁的错 谁能说得清楚
还不如算我的错
做 有什么 不敢做
怕什么 相信我 不在乎
就算你走了
落 就算我 的心从十六楼
落下负一层 B座
我也不会难过 你不要小看我
有什么熬不过 大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌 声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多 我还是很快乐
我再不会难过 你别太小看我
有什么熬不过 谁说我不能喝
我喝得比谁都多 走路有点颠簸
也比你强得多 我还是很快乐
做 有什么 不忍心
怕什么 相信我 不在乎
就算你走了
落 就算我 的心从十六楼
落下负一层 B座
我也不会难过 你不要小看我
有什么熬不过 大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌 声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多 我还是很快乐
我再不会难过 你别太小看我
有什么熬不过 谁说我不能喝
我喝得比谁都多 走路有点颠簸
也比你强得多 我还是很快乐
我再不会难过 你不要小看我
有什么熬不过 大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌 声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多 我还是很快乐
我才不会难过 你别太小看我
有什么熬不过 烧掉你写的信
忘掉你喜欢的歌 绑住我的眼睛
眼泪掉不下来 我还是很快乐

Outing with those gays later again.
Hmm....movie again. =)

01 11 10
Nice Day to remember
Ha~
Guess no one will know today was suppose to be my special day.
But now, no more.

至少有开心过。
I will only remember all the happiest moment.

Thanks to someone who really entertain me during my work time today.
HA!

Is a brand new month again.
And in 2 week time, i will be 21.
Is really fast.
And I had already plan what to do that day.
A simple birthday wish is "I want all my beloved friends to celebrate with me."
Please come true k? =)

My weekend was fun again.
Friday
Went to wavehouse with jingye, junkok and xuelin.
Was quite relax place and we had beer.
After all, i was drunk again.
First time, I drank till so sleepy. LOL! -.-
Took cab to jun kok's house and mj session.
Won $8. Took first bus home.

Saturday
Meet up with boss.
I had a cut hair before meeting her.
Short and ugly. =(
She took off her extension, had a hair cut.
Dinner was Let's Sweet at Ps.
Was my 2nd time having it.
Sian~
Watched movie and off to my house for hair dye session.
She even stay over at my house. -.-
Super steady sia. LOL!
Enjoy my day with her.

Sunday
Meet those guys at hougang mall
Kh is a super troublesome person!
LOL! Guess those who went will know why.
Jun Kok's house for mj again.
Took last bus home.
Thanks for accompany me to wait for bus. =)

I just feel that everything change.
Is not the same as last time anymore.
Is weird.
Can't say out the feelings but...... is suck.
Haiz.


My heart still hurts, I can't hold in my tears
Even though I said I had already forgotten, even if I try to lie to myself
Because I still can't forget you
*My tears falling like crazy, at this rate, what am I going to do
I want to live proudly, what to do, my tears keep falling*
What did I do wrong
Why did we separate
I don't know the reason, I'm so furious
No matter how hard I try to forget, in the end it's still you

Even though I really don't know the reason, no matter what I do will make you mad, right
Because you've always right, and I'm always wrong
Let's go back, stop my tears from falling
My tears falling like crazy, at this rate, what am I going to do
I want to live proudly, my tears keep falling like crazy

Bored at home~

This week kinda of guai because I went home after work.
1: Save money
2: Watch video
3: Download songs
4: hmmm...secret. =P

Doesn't matter I already have friends for me anymore.
Because I know when they really treat me as friend, no matter what they will be there for me.
I see through some of them.
I am just disappointed.
So forget it. Move on with my life.
The life that belong to me. =)

My currently best thing is SINGLE-HOOD life.
Freedom!
No trouble for everything.
Enjoying myself now.
I really like my life now. =))

Monday Blue.


October is ending soon again.
Don't know why when coming to end year, time pass really fast.
Haiz.

Over the weekends......
Friday had night cycling with usual gang again.
But this time wasn't fun enough.
Maybe things are different from last time.
Hmm..through out the journey, we were like entertaining ourself.
Obviously was fun because I got 3 entertainer.
LOL~
We rent our bicycle at pasir ris park for $15 and timing was from 8pm to 10am.
We started cycling from 3 am because was waiting for rx.
Cycle all the way to east coast and back to pasir ris.
From 3 am to 7 am.
Had breakfast at downtown east mac, and slack awhile.
Back to pasir ris park to wait for the shop to open and return the bicycle.
Cabbed home with rx.
Reached home around 10.45am, bathed and sleep.

Was awake around 5pm plus by a idiot for calling me about iphone stuff. =.=
Slacked at home till 8.30pm and meet them at compass point to accompany kh to buy his stuff.
In the end, he and jy went to their friend's birthday party first and by the time they reach sengkang was already 9.30pm. -.-
Aftermath went to hougang to have dinner and mj session at jk's house.
Was so lame that jk had to go boat quay to settle some stuffs.
Around 2am, rx, thai and kh left jk's house.
3 of us fall asleep while waiting for kok to return.
4 am, we start our mj session again.
Played till 8am.
Had breakfast and i took bus home.
Was so tired that i was suppose to accompany my mum to NTUC.
In the end, I wake up at 6pm. =.=

I don't understand what human are thinking.
Whatever it is, there won't be a right thing for it.
Being a human is really very difficult.
So just chose to look and shut up.
No point bother so much because nobody will appreciate it.
Just a sentence: FUCK CARE~

One more month to my birthday.
Suddenly feel so lazy for everything.......

Happening weekend siol. =)

Friday night went to hougang to find jk and wg for dinner.
Had majong session again.
And I won. =D

Saturday
Reached home at 4am.
Was awake by my brother because he want to use my computer itunes.
And ask me about iphone stuff.
While was helping him, he told me that my dad actually brought iphone too.
But he didn't want to use and intend to sell it.
So i asked my dad to give it to me since my 3GS got problem.
Hahaha~ In the end, i got it for free. =D
Was chatting with my brother about iphone stuff and helping him for 2 hours like this and he went out.
Aftermath, while i was jailbreaking my phone, my sis ask me to play majong with her and her bf.
So i played till 5 pm, and I won again. =D
They bring me out for dinner at Chomp Chomp.
Shiok TTM because I don't need to pay anything.
Reached home and played one round and meet kok and wg at my house nearby to go toa payoh to meet the lovely couple.
LOL~
Lucky everything went back to normal.
Really normal. Glad to see you guys happy. =D
That day was full of memories, i mean all the past memories just flash back to my mind again. LOL!
Slack at sky garden till 2am plus and was kanna screen by police.
Spoil our mood and went home aftermath. =.=
Reached home and helped my brother to jailbreak his phone till 4plus.

Sunday
Went out with boss and her BF.
Super lame couple.
Seriously they are very lame. O.o
Dinner was at Crystal Jade buffet located at PS.
We sat there for 3 hours. =.=
Talked lots of crappy stuffs.
But I learn something new again.
Thanks people for letting me know what is life. =)
Apart from them after that.
HOME SWEET HOME.

Even i have MC for today, I still have to come to work. =.=
Because someone wanted to "harm" me.
FUCK MAN!

Forget it.
I think October is damn suay month for me.
Got throat infection plus vomit.
Whatever I eat, I vomit out everything.
Sigh!
What a day!

有些东西是失去以后才知道后悔
Suddenly I miss the days with him.
Don't know why too.
Miss the days when he love me so much.
Miss the days when he will bring me out.
Miss the days when he "act" cute infront of me.
Miss the days when we were buy meals together.
Miss the days when we were watching tv together.
Miss the days when he pamper me like a princess.
Miss the days when I throw temper at him, he will make me happy.
Seriously I MISS THE DAYS WITH HIM.
Sigh~
The best memories in my life that I will never forget.
I never know someone who actually love me so deepy before.
Is my fortune anyway.

2 more hours to go.
My stomach is killing me now.
My neck is pain.
AWW~~

I dream of someone.
Is it because I miss him too much or what?
He appear in my dream again and this time is with his family. =.=
Somehow it was a sweet dream.
That's why today I am not tired. =) LOL!

Today I went to check my nuffnang and see who went to view my blog.
And someone was seaching "how to get my ex boyfriend back", and my blog was inside the seaching list.
WTF! I didn't even write anything regarding how to get my ex back.
This is so ridiculous. Lame lah.

是你的就是你的! Agree with this.

I asked my sister about her 21st birthday celebration which is 5 years ago. =.=
She asked to start doing research, invitation...blah blah blah.
Haiz... I scare things might happen that day. D:
How how how?
Is good to have a mini celebration because
1) I won't regret for not celebration
2) Meeting up with old friends
3) All my friends are celebrating with me
Still considering. hmmm.....Should i put it on tuesday night or wednesday afternoon?

What a day!
I don't know why my appetitze is getting better now.
Maybe I am happy? LOL!
I being eating alot sia. Getting my old weight soon! =.=
Need to stop eating now.

While I was working, i was surfing net.
And randomly I went to type "crystal jade steamboat", and saw lots of post.
Make me craving for it.
Free flow of XLB, is like OMG!!!!
No matter what, I WANT TO GO THERE AND EAT.
And didn't expected boss and bee is willing to go there with me. =)
YEAH~ Love you girls!!!!
Shall eat on friday.
If really nice, next week gathering shall bring them to go there and eat.
HAHAHAHA~

Jingye is coming back real soon.
Kinda of miss him.
I want to see his expression..
Can imagine now....hahahahaha

My home is so quiet nowadays.
Mum is at malaysia.
Youngest bro is NS.
Oldest bro don't know go where. Didn't saw him for 2 days already.
Sister staying at her Bf's house.
By the time I reach home everyday, my dad had already fall asleep.
AWW~~ SIAN!! =(((

No voice weekend. =(
Friday
Was feeling sick but still can go out and ton. =.=
Meet up with girlfriends.
Is like so long that 4 of us gather together.
But guess we shall meet once every 2 weeks. Hopefully~
Time pass fast. Meet up for dinner and had to leave to meet those guys for night cycling.
By the time they reached pasir ris, all bicycles shop had close.
In the end, we slack at changi beach there.
LOL! Is another fun day.

Saturday
We agree to meet up to watch "the other guys" at cathay.
So we asked thai and xian to buy tickets while we 3 meet up later for dinner.
Slack at SOTA while waiting the "couple" to arrive.
Didn't expected things work out on them so fast.
Grats to them! Long lasting k?
Although when i saw them holding hands, I was shocked. O.o
Thought that i will feel jealous, sad or whatever, but i feel nothing.
I am glad that you two FINALLY get together.
The 2 friends once was my best, close and hanging out together de friend, and now they are together. Funny ar but happy. =D
Lan session aftermath.
Walked to clark quay to wait for first bus.
Home sweet home!


We!! 4 of us! Lame and iphone gang.


Finally rx is attached.
So 3 of you must be happy with your partner.
I feel like my 3 daughters are getting marry. =.=
Like what I always said: "要开心!"
Remember ok?
Although I am not a good friend, but if you guys need someone to accompany, just call me. =)
No matter what, I will be there for you guys.........

Enjoying my single-hood life now.
Because I am happy for what I have now.
There are lots of people really care for me.
Although they didn't show it out, but i know.
Thanks!! I feel very blessed already.
A simple SMS, also bright up my day. LOL! =D

Hmm.. ok, i shouldn't be mad or what.
I am leading a good life now.
There are someone there for me. So what else do i need?
=) Just be happy.

I am really tired of everything.
The more I care, the more I am being KPO.
What for?
So I will just FUCK care.

Enjoy LIFE! -.-"

Thanks for yesterday night!
I think I am just making things worst.
But anyway I won't do it again.
What's the point? LOL!
I lost 2 BFF yet i am glad that I gain another one!

Thanks Junkok for being at myside when I needed someone. =D
But don't put anything else into it ok?
FUCK THE FEELING THING! LOL!
You should understand what i am talking about right?
I am touched for accompany me yesterday..all i can said is "rare!"
hahaha.. But thanks anyway.
It's good to dream but sometimes we can turn dream to reality.

Because of something, I nearly lose my job.
But lucky my supervisor is such a good person.
And now no matter what, I will be a good girl and go to work everyday.
Regardless how tired i am, I still have to drag myself to work.
Thanks for my 2 colleagues helped me to say alots of good words for me.
So touched for it.

I know that the things i expected, it won't happen.
But things that I don't expect, it happen.
So I rather not think anymore and live on with my life.
I still got lots of good friends around me.
What for? LOL!
Thanks people for listening to my rubbish this past few weeks.
Is really too much shits happening on me.
So wake me up when september ends, althought it had already ended.

Vanessa told me that last time I was a cheerful person until I had a BF.
I started to change.
Changed to a person who is very emotional.
Seldom meet up with them.
When got trouble then find them.
She still treat me as a very best friend no matter what.
I am touched to hear there because I treat her very nasty last time.
But thanks buddy!
Thanks to be myside too.

That's why I treasure every friendship I have now.
Because I know once you get into a relationship, you won't able to balance it UNLESS you are a pro.
I still believe it's hard. But I have to be understanding lah.

I going to date all my old "close" friends out soon.
Hopefully things will get better soon.
And memories will kept in my heart forever.
Thanks for the memories. =D

I keep writing alots of rubbish because i got NOTHING to do at work.
Surfing net to kill time. Sian~
I think I might be celebrating my birthday at home.
Mini-catering... Still considering.
Because I want someone to be there but i guess nobody want to see him and he won't turn up too.
I feel like I misses everyone.
Him, him and him. LOL!
------------------------------------------------------------------------
2 more hours to go..
I really got nothing to do at home.
Just wasting my time at work lor.
Sian sia.
Feel like sleeping now.
"Mj" girl told me alots of thing. And I kanna scolded by her. LOL!
But she really gave me alot of advices, some might be wrong but if i follow what she said, i won't make myself suffer.
Maybe boss, vann and kok words too.
I am sorry for my stubborn mindset.
Now I will listen to what you all told me. =D
Goodbye and Hello.

MC for the day.
Guess my supervisor was pissed with me, tomorrow she will talk to me. =.=
Feel damn bad for my poor attendance.
Hais.

I went to read through my past entries again.
And realise everything is really happen too fast.
FUCK. Everything seem to be happen like yesterday.
Why? Is too damn fast.
But who going to care?
FUCK~
My life is really damn fucked up.
Things are just happen in my life again and again.
Is the fate that i have to suffer all this shit things.
But i will get over it soon, hopefully!
I still can't believe things are changing now.
Hais...

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

What should I do?

People gave me lots of advices of what should i do.
Maybe is just i misunderstood all things and make it to be so complicate.
I am sorry to create so many troubles and problems to you guys.
I really hope the best for you guys.
MUST BE HAPPY K? LOL!

What i am going to do now?
I have to go back and learn my driving.
Date all my old friends out.
Regardless is who, even my ex, i am willing to be back friend with him again.
I think there is no point to lose someone who i am happy with before.
And I will treat them even better than last time because I really know friendship is really very important part of my life.
Without them = without me.
Those who help me pull through the most low of my life people, i will like to say thank you!
Sincerely!

I miss my mum. =.=
She's going to malaysia now! OMG~

明知道爱情并不牢靠
但是我还是拼命往里跳
明知道再走可能是监牢
但是我还是相信只是煎熬

朋友都劝我不要不要
不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑
但是做人已经那么累
假惺惺的想要逃
在爱里连真心都不能给
这才真的真正的可笑

爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕
我太笨 明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但是我还奋不顾身
但我相信有点可能

可能 在爱里面这样算笨
可能 永远没有所谓永恒
但是我 不愿放弃这里面一点点可能
宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

Forget it man! I will get a life by myself.
September is too much happening for me to handle.
Thanks for giving me such a good memories and now everything is gone.
Happy moments won't last long.
I really agree with it.

After sometime, i will still be going back to my life which belong to me.
Lonely and easy life. =D
Seeing you guys happy, and i will be happy.
No matter what, just find me if you guys got problems.

I saw a person just change too easy when that person got whatever it needs.
I treasure this friendship alot alot alot.

Back from genting trip. =D
Long story ar. LOL~ Read it if you wants to. =.=

18 Sep 10
Suppose to meet up with jy to have mj session but we don't have enough player. So we decided to cancel it. Was rotting at home while waiting for xl and rx to come to my house. Both of them reach my house around 10, 11 plus. Had mac for supper. Slack and chit chat at my room till morning.

19 Sep 10
My dad fetch us to lavender MRT and surprising those guys reached eariler than us. =.= Once in a life time. LOL. Queue up and got our bus no and seat no. The bus moved off around 6.50am. Reached genting around 12pm. Through out the journey, I guess I was the only one who didn't sleep at all. Hahaha... Maybe I just too excited. =O Reached genting and everyone was excited, weather was so cooling. Hmm..queue up for our hotel room no and had KFC for our lunch. I was so tired that I forgot I order enough chicken for everyone yet I went to queue up again. =.= KFC burger suck TTM~ Waste my money. Back to the place where we need to queue up for our hotel room key. I requested for connecting room, but we reached our hotel room then we realise that our room doesn't have connecting room. And we have to go down to the lobby to change again. Something bad happen. I felt sorry... =( Change room and everything settle down, decided to check whether we are able to play outdoor theme park. Start playing from 5 pm. Played all those thrill ride, see each other "scare" face, hear each other shouting....Was lame but is fun. =)

Went back to hotel, bathed, slacked and all of us was exhausted. Dragged ourself to have dinner. LOL~ Dinner was suck, expensive and I couldn't finish it. Walked around and went back to hotel room. Everyone fall a sleep around 10 plus.

20 Sep 10
Saw rx went to toilet at 5am plus, and was awake after that. We 3 girls was discussing to have mac for breakfast, wake thai up and off we went to mac. We called wg's room and we thought they were still sleeping, ended up we called wrong number. =.= Had breakfast, walked around to other hotel. Backed to our room at 8am. When I went to bath, they were lazy to go sunway and told me that they don't feel like going. I start to feel like "WTF" and sian. Ok, i endure and told them if don't want to go then is ok. After awhile, wg came to our room and say jk doesn't feel like going all shit. And I started to cry, i know i am stupid but i planned it for that long and every shit just happen to me in few minutes time. That feeling was suck. But I didn't blame anyone. Leave genting at 11 plus, and lucky we got a cab just outside the hotel. Everybody just start to listen to MP3 excepted for me, rx and wg. We started to talk rubbish till we reached sunway. I love the moment when we could actually have time to chit chat to each other in the bus or cab because the feeling was different from singapore. I don't know why too. LOL!

Reached sunway and the first thing we did was finding "WI-FI" and A&W. We were like some mad person when we saw there is Wi-fi in the shopping center. Settle lunch and went to lagoon to have fun. Fuck, nearly got accident. But nothing happen too. =.= Leave the place at 6pm, went back to sunway pyramid to have dinner. And everyone was tired again. Brought cupcake for xl and wg belated birthday. Brought beer for celebration but somethings just cropped up so randomly. Suppose was happily yet................Fuck man! First time, i saw rx was so angry. I got nothing to say about that what things happen because I was in the fault too.

Went back to our room, everything settle down and they went to sleep. While me and thai was chatting till when he went to smoke. Something happen again. I wasn't taking his words seriously when i said "don't tell me you want to faint ar?" and he reply "ya". That time, i thought he was just joking. After i went to toilet, i heard a loud bang. I was so shocked and asked him what happen. He didn't reply me after a few second, he came and said "i fainted". FUCK~ I really got freaked out. Lucky nothing happen to him.

21 Sep 10
Last day at genting. I slept for like 1, 2 hour nia. And we had mac for breakfast again. =.= Is like our meals at genting confirm will have fast food. LOL. Back to hotel room, bathed, packed our stuffs and check out around 12 pm plus. Since the time was still early, they went to arcade while me and thai were waiting for them at mac. Aftermath, we had to take coach and leave genting. LOL~ I was seating with wg and i didn't know we could talk from the start till we reached singapore. 7 hours of talking. WTH right? It was fun to talk to him. Thanks for entertaining me through out the journey. =D

22 Sep 10
Thought that i can get up for work, in the end my body was just stuck in the bed. LOL~ So i went to get MC, yet i still went out to meet them for mid autumn festival. Was dragging myself to go out because i didn't eat for a whole day plus i didn't sleep enough too. Manange to survive through. LOL! People go holiday to enjoy but i was suffering. Hahaha... Didn't sleep well and eat enough. In the end, i loss 2kg. =(

Was fun with them, but hope no one will anyhow thinks lor. Enjoy life. Glad to say: I love my life now!! I never felt so happy before. No stress, no emotion, no unhappiness, no quarrel, no tears. Just laughter... =)


I am sorry. I am sorry for everything. I am the one who cause everythings to happen. I don't want anyone of you to get hurt. Don't need to bother whether i am sad or what, i just want you all to be happy. Because I know the feeling being hurts, is really painful. That's why I don't want any of you to have that feeling.

Sorry to those who worried for me. As i don't know i lost my appetite and my sleeping hours too. I will be alright soon~

I know what I should do!

Busy week.

And again, 4 days straight slept less than 4 hours. =.=
No bad, cause i still can endure and went to work too. =)
Went out on tuesday with rx, xl and thai for dinner.
Aftermath went to find jy at his house area, because he got chicken pox.
Was shocked when saw him.
He's in terrible condition.
But he still look cheerful. Faster get well, so we can go out and have fun. =D

13 hours more to go...
Excited for my genting trip.
Hopefully it won't rain, as i plan all the activities for so long..
And please nothing happen tooo.... *pray hard*

Just wondering something.
I just feel is weird but I hope i won't do something stupid.
Maybe i just watch too much drama. =.=
One sentence - 是你的就是你的
But i doubt this sentence will happen in my life again.
Good luck to whoever understand what i am talking about.

Treasure all the things i have now.
I believe it won't last long.

Off to pack my stuffs....

My leg still hurt.
Ok, i did something crazy again.
Went to find ruixian on saturday after her work.
And went to clarke quay to settle my dinner, slack and talk.
Leave that place at 12am plus.
Start walking from clarke quay to ps to orchard to toa payoh to potong pasir.
I reached home at 6am plus.
Super crazy~ Enjoy the walking trip. =D

Browse through my photos album and saw lots of ugly, funny, lame photos.
Remember the times we had our night cycling?
Remember the times we went to Ktv?
Remember the times how we celebrate each other birthdays?
Remember the times we had fun during our chalet?
Why can't i play hard during that time?
Treasure all the best memories I have now. =D

Sometime I feel bad for something.
I couldn't do anything or help up too.
All i can do is just keep quiet and see what will happen next.
I am really useless.
No matter what someone will get hurt in the end.
So is better not to do anything.
Just stop and stare!
Nobody will know what i am talking about. =)

Yesterday was an awesome day.
Did something new.
Went to airport first.
Suppose I was the one who accompany ruixian to buy something, in the end everyone tag along. =.=
Brought kite at mini-bite and took train to marina barrage.
Ok, is my 2nd time going there.
Is fun over there.
Because I did I want to do, FLY KITE!
Thanks for everyone going without complaining much. O.o
Enjoy alot last night. =)
Ton-ed over at my house.
But guess everyone was too tired, and they left my house around 6am plus.
LOL. There goes my public holiday.

Still haven eaten anything yet.
Don't feel hungry too.
What is happening to me?

Why am I bothering it so much?
Gosh!! I need something to distract me..
I need to train myself not to let people know what I am thinking.
Just Shut The FUCK Up.
Silence is golden.

Lack of sleep for this past few days.
Imagine i only get to sleep like 4 hours for the past 3 days.
I am dying soon. =(

Thanks everyone for saying "I look cheerful and happier than last time"!
Is the fact that i am happy now.
No trouble for relationship.
No more EMO!
Is good to live without trouble and emo.
That why I can be happy than last time. =)

Genting is booked and will be going there on next sunday.
Like finally after so long, I grant my wishes.
Thanks everyone to fulfill it with me. =)
Love you guys!!

Now is 7.51pm and shall sleep real soon but my bro stuck at the toilet for like 30minutes.
WTF~

SHAG DAY!
Firstly I only slept 4 hours for the past 2 days.
Secondly my instructor didn't stamp my driving for me that mean my $58 is gone.
Thirdly I fail my FTT just by a mark.
Just want to shout "FUCK MAN!!!"
=(

I realise that my relationship cause me to get closer with them.
If I am still together with him, I might not know that I have such a wonderful branch of friends.
Not only that, we get closer and we change too.
Our attitudes are much more good than last time.
I just want to say "Thank you" to him.
Thanks for saying goodbye to me. I grant the friendship that I always wanted. =)

Our genting trip is double confirm. Yeah~
Shall book the tickets tomorrow or thursday!

Ok, I have to sleep now.
Damn shag day.
Hopefully that person won't pester me tonight. LOL!

Random post.
I create a trouble and feel bad about it.
I am really sorry but i know you won't read my blog.
You plan everything and yet I spoil it. =(
Sigh~

Thanks for listening to my trouble and advice me what to do.
Shall forget everything, and live on happily.

FTT tomorrow and i haven even start studying yet.
Too tired for that. =.=
Plus tomorrow shall camp at CDC for half a day.
Driving + e-trial + FTT.

OMG! Just tell me how I can I don't fall in love with him.
He's damn too handsome. Plus cute, tall and everything good about him.
But too bad, I won't see him in person except in youtube. HAHAHAHA~
Was finding his pictures at google and make me so "high" while searching.
He is really damn too hot~ *huuu*

I think I should be getting a 2nd SLR camera.
Since I am a beginner, why don't just get a 2nd hand first and play around with it before getting a really SLR camera?
Should be a good idea. =)

Tomorrow is the day.......
1 September 2010.
Waiting for you!

At that time, we are not mature enough for each other.

Guess last week, I ton-ed too much and make me so tired.
Reached home at 6 am in the morning on sunday.
Slept and wake up at 12 plus.
Use computer, watch Hello baby. Damn funny show.
Out with my parents for breakfast/lunch/dinner at 3 plus.
Back home, help me dad to do something.
Off to bed at 6 pm.
Slept till 7am in the morning.
Was damn lazy to wake up.
Thought of switching on my laptop, but was too lazy to get up.
My Lazy Sunday. T_________T

I think everything is fated.
Why that show appear in tv and make remind me of my "last time" watching that show with him at his house? FUCK~
Forget it. Emo Guy. =.= LOL!

My colleague is really very irritating, keep pestering me to play mahjong.
I not that addicted yet.
Give me a life man! =)

I guess genting is a CONFIRM.
Wooooo~ I am really looking forward the day to arrive.
And I am excited to get my spectacle too.

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish to go back to a place much simpler than this

I broke my contact lens. =( Upset TTM~
Decided to get a spectacle because I can't see clearly during night.
Especially when i am driving, couldn't see the green arrow is turning left or right. T.T
Spent $275 for my spectacle, kinda of crazy. But is branded and i love the color too.
My eyesight is not that deep yet. So i have to save it back now. Hopefully~ LOL

Step up 3 was awesome.
Thanks for accompany me to watch.
I have download all the songs but can't find the last song.

Going to meet up with wen gui and thai loong for dinner. YEAH~
Is been a long time since i saw them.
2 weeks? LOL.

Salt is a awesome movie, but i guess there is part 2. LOL
Just finished online. =)

Went out with my colleague on saturday.
And I brought alot of things that day.
Real shopping spree for me.
Shall do it every month. It bright up my day too~

I just wonder why there is someone who is so petty, talk without using brain, everyone need to listen to what that person say..whatever is it mean that person is just too way selfish.
I don't want to bother what she/he is thinking.
Just wish that person good luck for itself future.
Don't change = losing friend

Somehow i was happy/shock when she told me that person thing.
Yeah~ I think i am desperate for it.
HAHAHA, i admit it. I AM DESPERATE!

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I'll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

Everyday of my work, i will definitely talk about genting trip with my colleague. Not only that, will do research for it too. hahahaha~ That's my life during my work.

Let me think what should i blog about.
Life seem to be normal every single day.
I am looking forward to night cycling next week and my genting trip next month, hopefully this two outing can make it. =D
I wonder why that couple quarrel in FB? Is it so fun to let the whole world know they are quarreling. =.= Kinda of lame. Not a young couple too. LOL~ 他们开心就好!

Chose to keep quieter for something. =O Nvm, shall stick to my old plan.

This 2 days, was watching 2am leader video at youtube.
He entertain me alot.
The ways he dance, is so fucking funny. GO watch it if you want to laugh. =.=

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

I am super tired!
Saturday didn't sleep at all.
Sunday slept for 5 hours nia. Is not even enough for sat's sleep.
Chatted phone with ruixian and thai loong. Was a lame chat. LOL!
Is my first time talking to both of them on phone.
Suddenly i feel that thai loong is such a talkative person.
Maybe he had open his heart to us, that why he talks alot. LOL!
That's good. =D
Chat for like 1hr 50 minutes, from 12am plus till 2am.
That's why i am so shag for today.

Finally my colleague add me in fb, shall show you all next meet up.
She even went to tell the guy about me. =.=
She seem to treat me very good, but from what i heard from thai and xl make me freak out leh.
Anyway I need to protect myself too.
Once bitten, twice shy.

I am mad!
We are mad!
Seriously damn fucking mad!
Only those one was toning will know why. LOL~
I feel that toning session can make us understand better.
Because we can talk lots of heart to heart chat.
Yup, is great to have them as friends. =O
Love them TTM!

I feel I am really useless, seeing you have trouble I don't know how to help you.
Still remember that time, you were so concern about me and my relationship life and wanted to ask me out but i was so stubborn.
And now you have trouble, i couldn't help you at all.
I am really a useless friend.
Sigh~ Making you happy when we meet up that is only thing i can do.
But just sometime you ignore. -.-
I really don't wish to see you crying for work again.
Is really don't worth it. You are a person who can suffer toughness and smart, i believe you can find a job easily. Is just that whether you want to try anot. Every job is the same, but don't just see the money nia. You are still young, and you also need to enjoy your life too. This job make your life so fucked up, and you also miss out alot of fun with us too.
This is just a advice to you, and i know what you thinking of.
As a friend, I REALLY doesn't want to see you suffering for this job.
Just one last thing, make up your mind and just do it.

I got to say i HAD let go of the relationship.
So don't come ask me stupid question. LOL~
I admit that starting of the break up, I still think that he will come back to me one day. But I don't have the mindset now.
I really really doesn't think about him anymore.
Just like the video he post at FB, I think the words are true and i went to "like" it =.= Doesn't mean anything.
I open up my heart everything, seeing through everything......

Woolala~ Going out with usual gang again.
Is alright to meet up with same people every weekends.
Because i LOVE them! LOL!
And i not going to bother what they going say about my dressing all this.
Cuz they are GAYS after all. LOL~
Troublesome gays!!!!

Yesterday meet up with boss and rx after work, is a awesome outing too.
I love them TTM!
They make me life bright up.
I think is the first time we had MAC for dinner.
Sit there for like at least for 45 minutes, talk lame thing!
Yup, doing/talking lame things are always what we do.
Meeting up with them are the best!
And I realise a quarrel can the friendship more better and treasure.
Just like me and Boss! Although the quarrel are DAMN stupid, but luckily it didn't spoil our friendship. And make treasure this friendship more than last time.
友情万岁!!!!

Today finally did a thing after 1 month plus. I remove all our photos in my room and put it somewhere that I couldn't see. Lol. Is kinda of random!

Talked to jy's sister regarding online contact lens, in the we brought at difference blogshop. Lol! Lame~

I don't know what to write anymore. I still looking forward next month! Hopefully by the time, everything could settle down and start refresh!

Ok, nite everyone. Gonna wake up early tomorrow. =)

Was reading this while working

Here are some tips on what you should do in the early days of a breakup to let the healing begin.

1. Avoid him for at least a few weeks. Seeing your former flame can bring out emotions and may cause you do to or say something you will regret. - I don't have former flame. =.=

2. Talk about your feelings with close friends. Get everything out so you won’t hold it inside. Your friends may get sick of hearing you talk about the situation but you need to let out all your feelings and thoughts. - My friends are obviously sick and tired of hearing the same old thing. =.=
3. Cry if you want to. It’s OK to cry over a loss. Don’t hold back, let the tears roll, but do it in a safe and private place. - Safe? How safe?LOL. =.=

4. Let go of mementos. Put aside or give away anything that reminds you of the relationship. Hide them out of sight so he will be out of mind until you’re able to remember the relationship without longing for it. - I am just simply to lazy to do it. =.=

5. Focus on all the things about your ex that drove you crazy, turned you off, or you just found plain annoying. It’ll make you feel better to remember your former flame was not perfect and there are things you won’t really miss about him. - Yeah~ Alot of things!

6. Think about the mean, cruel or rude things your ex may have done in your relationship. Really give these things play in your memory. Remind yourself that somebody who truly cared for you would not have done such thoughtless things and tell yourself you’re better off without that kind of ego-crushing behaviour in your life. - YEAH! I totally agree!!

7. Maintain a strict no contact policy and stick with it. Don’t pass notes through friends. Don’t make any calls. Stay away from instant messaging or texting on your cell. Avoid all contact until you are totally and completely sure you no longer want to be with him. It’s the only way you can move on once and for all. - I already move on without him. =)

I think I am abit emotion about yesterday stuff.
After thinking for a day, I think that is none of my business.
Because I don't have the right to control his life plus if any girls want to throw herself on him, is already got nothing to do with me.
And I only care for him as a friend that's all. =D

Fuck my day! My hand got lots of small paper cut.