Bored at home.
Is saturday yet i dont have program. =(

What's going with my life?
I just can't let you off my mind.
Is there anything to forget you?
I don't know what to do now.
Is been 5 months.
Things wasn't going well in my life.
Do you know how much i miss you?
I know it can't turn back anymore.
And there isn't anything i can do.
Really hate this feeling.....

Really regret alot alot alot. =(


time passed and left
love is faced with a choice
you've become cold and i've cried
the unhappiness at the beginning
you just wrote them on a post card
sometimes love can only be like this it's really painful

what happened, you're tired, hadn't we agreed, to have happiness
i understand, don't say anymore, love had weakened, my dreams have sunk
being happy and not, narrating them one after another, you can't bear it
those feelings of having loved are too deep, i still remember them

you're not waiting anymore, hadn't we agreed, to have happiness
i've been wrong, tears have dried, we've let go, i've come to regret
only that musical box of memories continue to turn
how can it be stopped?

Finally i have time to update my blog.
Last week was super happening week.
Because I celebrate my 21st birthday at home =)
Thanks for those who came to my celebration.
Thanks girlfriends to accompany me and help me with my celebration.
Thanks those "gays" to came down so late.
Thanks vanessa for asking my parents out for photo taking session.
I love you guys. Thanks x10000~~~

Happy 21st Birthday to Me!!!

Will update soon....

8 days
7 days

Hmm..I know what i going to get myself for my birthday gift.
Guess this year will be different from the past 3 years.
I used to have my "Love" one celebrating on my birthday.
And now, I guess i will celebrate at home on 18.
Back to those days.
Hmmm.. kinda miss those days.

Now then i realise how much mistake i made.
Why? And everything is too late to turn back.
I regret it. Why didn't at the start i treasure it?
And when it disappear from my life, I start realise that I am actually had a lot of mistakes.
There isn't anymore chance for me.
失去才来后悔

我还是不敢相信你已经离开我的身边。
你再也不回来了。

希望你不会把我忘掉！

You who won't answer my calls anymore, you who doesn't want to see me at all
No matter how I beg for forgiveness, there's already no use

Waiting by your door, even if you pretend you can't see me
Brushing past my shoulder like seeing a stranger you just met
Waiting until you are willing to hear me say sorry

Looking at my phone ten times a day, even jumping at the slight sound
To find out if you had sent me a text message

Just hope that person is YOU. =(

9 days

Will be better year when i turn to 21?
This year is really suck.
So many shits things happen on me.

Just now was listening to jay chou songs while browsing through my old albums.
And so nice, randomly an qing start to play when i was looking my photos with him.
Nearly tears dropping.
Somehow, i had a bad feeling.
Which I don't like it at all, but what i can do?
I only can remember those good memories with him.
I have to ask myself, am i really let it go?
Sigh~

I shouldn't use such a hurtful word to say it.
After I cool down, i realise i was in the fault.
I am sorry.
Useless

I cant believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
They hurt so bad that they ended our Relationship
I cant believe it four years gone down the drain
How I wished things woulda happened so differently
I tried to say this many times but still you couldn’t see
You kept insisting, and resisting that you would not fall again

Maybe I shouldn't be angry or what.
Thinking those action i did, is really stupid
And things are just repeating again and again.
This is not the first time happening, and why is only me?
Fuck~

I don't deserves any good things happen on me.

Just a urge to MIA now.

Sunday!
I spent my day with my beloved family.
And this is my first day going with my youngest brother too.
LOL~ I know lah.

Birthday is really coming soon.
11 days to go.
Hmm..I got my loves one celebrate advance for me.
So for my actual day, shall stay at home celebrate with my mum bah.
I don't felt disappointed when boss said she can't take off on that day.
So is okay la.
Maybe for the past, i might be disappointed but not longer now.
I don't know whether i should do it anot.
Someone told me to at least ask, if not in the future i will regret.
Even i don't ask, I already know the answer.
Hmmm...haix. Confusing. -.-

This week is super happening.
Especially on FRIDAY!
LOL~ Let's play together, okay?

Everyone got a limit.
I am disappointed for what you did.
Seriously just a word for you - FUCKER!
Whatever things happen to you, i seriously just fuck care.

Shall be a spy for someone! LOL~

What a DAY!
LOL~
Got long weekend for this week.
Yesterday meet up with GFs.
Finally 4 us gather and had a whole day together.
Hope there will more outings to come too~ =)
Happening day too.
No comment about it.
After all, is just nothing. -.-

说 有什么 不能说 怕什么
相信我 不会哭 我不会难过
错 谁的错 谁能说得清楚
还不如算我的错
做 有什么 不敢做
怕什么 相信我 不在乎
就算你走了
落 就算我 的心从十六楼
落下负一层 B座
我也不会难过 你不要小看我
有什么熬不过 大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌 声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多 我还是很快乐
我再不会难过 你别太小看我
有什么熬不过 谁说我不能喝
我喝得比谁都多 走路有点颠簸
也比你强得多 我还是很快乐
做 有什么 不忍心
怕什么 相信我 不在乎
就算你走了
落 就算我 的心从十六楼
落下负一层 B座
我也不会难过 你不要小看我
有什么熬不过 大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌 声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多 我还是很快乐
我再不会难过 你别太小看我
有什么熬不过 谁说我不能喝
我喝得比谁都多 走路有点颠簸
也比你强得多 我还是很快乐
我再不会难过 你不要小看我
有什么熬不过 大不了唱首歌
虽然是悲伤的歌 声音有点颤抖
也比你好得多 我还是很快乐
我才不会难过 你别太小看我
有什么熬不过 烧掉你写的信
忘掉你喜欢的歌 绑住我的眼睛
眼泪掉不下来 我还是很快乐

Outing with those gays later again.
Hmm....movie again. =)

01 11 10
Nice Day to remember
Ha~
Guess no one will know today was suppose to be my special day.
But now, no more.

至少有开心过。
I will only remember all the happiest moment.

Thanks to someone who really entertain me during my work time today.
HA!

Is a brand new month again.
And in 2 week time, i will be 21.
Is really fast.
And I had already plan what to do that day.
A simple birthday wish is "I want all my beloved friends to celebrate with me."
Please come true k? =)

My weekend was fun again.
Friday
Went to wavehouse with jingye, junkok and xuelin.
Was quite relax place and we had beer.
After all, i was drunk again.
First time, I drank till so sleepy. LOL! -.-
Took cab to jun kok's house and mj session.
Won $8. Took first bus home.

Saturday
Meet up with boss.
I had a cut hair before meeting her.
Short and ugly. =(
She took off her extension, had a hair cut.
Dinner was Let's Sweet at Ps.
Was my 2nd time having it.
Sian~
Watched movie and off to my house for hair dye session.
She even stay over at my house. -.-
Super steady sia. LOL!
Enjoy my day with her.

Sunday
Meet those guys at hougang mall
Kh is a super troublesome person!
LOL! Guess those who went will know why.
Jun Kok's house for mj again.
Took last bus home.
Thanks for accompany me to wait for bus. =)

I just feel that everything change.
Is not the same as last time anymore.
Is weird.
Can't say out the feelings but...... is suck.
Haiz.


My heart still hurts, I can't hold in my tears
Even though I said I had already forgotten, even if I try to lie to myself
Because I still can't forget you
*My tears falling like crazy, at this rate, what am I going to do
I want to live proudly, what to do, my tears keep falling*
What did I do wrong
Why did we separate
I don't know the reason, I'm so furious
No matter how hard I try to forget, in the end it's still you

Even though I really don't know the reason, no matter what I do will make you mad, right
Because you've always right, and I'm always wrong
Let's go back, stop my tears from falling
My tears falling like crazy, at this rate, what am I going to do
I want to live proudly, my tears keep falling like crazy