Since when is the last time i bloggggg.... Haha..

Hmm..nowadays life is like work, home, work, home. Quite a boring life lah.. =( Firstly i really like my job alot, even though the pay wasn't really good but untill one day my dept everyone left. change manager and colleague. Manager still quite a good guy, but my colleague is a CHEENA. WHICH I HATE IT ALOT~ old, attitude problem.... zzzzz.. is really hard to work with her. I miss my old colleague. =(

3 more weeks to Bkk trip again, this time round will be going with friends and love. =) Like finally i get to take plane with love. hahaha~ really hope that we will get to oversea again. 5d4n and business class plane. I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT~~~ =)

Love's birthday is coming soon. Wonder what should i get for him. hmm....

So many months didn't update my blog. >.<
was doing some research for my Bkk trip.
and i am flying this fri..
Woo~~~ not really excited, but i can't wait to do packing for my trip.
hahaha..

working life - is suck. have to 2 person job. and i got alot of never ending work to do. my increment only so little nia. might as well not give. -.- can't even see any difference lor.

relationship - still ok, hahah
a new life for him. because he went to study poly for 3 years. alright~ What can i do? *suck thumb*
Never ending quarrel with him too. =( But he still treat me very good.

friendship - i am glad everything is fine now.
I will treasure every friendship I have. =)

no place for me to vent out my angers.

is true that women and guys thinking got so much different.

somehow, why i can't do whatever i want.

I don't like being control.

and just now i shouldn't have answer that call. being scolded.. zzz.

i knew it....

anyway i got comments about his study or what.

if he think is the right way, then just go ahead.

happy jiu hao ar~

want me to go study, change citizenship and everything.

as if i was born with money.

i don't have anyone to help me. all i can is to depend on myself.

that why we grow up in different way.

i rather being independent than being a mama boy or papa son.

i should think what should i do from now on.

do what i want.

happy 1st anni to my dearest bi! hope you enjoy ur day. even though we just had a dinner and a short shopping. haha. guess we are really tired after working and got no strength to shop. but I enjoy myself.. thanks bi!

now then I realize my ftt last for 2 yrs.. zzzz.. should have check earlier and book for tp. guess I have to do it ASAP. if not have to retake ftt again..

today is 人日. happy birthday to everyone! every year sure will have steamboat with family. but this year seem to be different. no steamboat with family but with bf's family.

didn't really have good r/s with my family since I got bf. is not a issue of having bf or what. just that I don't like to share a room with my sis. ended up I will stay at bf's house every weekend. also not I want de.... but what to do? maybe I should really get a mask and a ear puck. :(

this year is so much different from past years.

cny alone in sg. how pathetic and bored! seriously~ nv want to try again. :(

until now, I still feel weird. don't know why I am reacting like this. is it because I know too much stuffs. I hate it do much. and all I could do is avoid.

another thing too.. I also don't know why I am reacting like this too. probably, I only want to spend time with u. guess I have to change.

I won't be it as a first choice and will consider again. walking back home and make me realize, things aren't the same as past, and there were a lot of changes.

how sad is it. but life still have to goes on~

talking about marriage. I find it strange and difficult to understand about humans. get marry, ended up husband love guys... weird ttm.

anyway I really hope settle down before 25. I want to have a child at young age. because I know, a baby can bring a family more fun and happiness. of course I hope to have a good r/s to my family. hahaha..just pray hard that I able to fulfill the dreams.

had a great day, thanks~ love you!!

is a brand new year. year 2012, will it be a better year? hope so.

new year new resolution.. hmm..perhaps it will be same as last year. take my license, more money.. haha.. maybe marriage? ~.~

but getting old again. can't imagine I 23 this year. sound so old. :(

how did I celebrate my countdown. there isn't any celebration. went to Kok Hse for mj session. sun, 1/1 stay at home for whole day at bf Hse, had steamboat session with his family at night. and today is the last day of ph, didn't went out too, except for dinner at hg mall. haha.. anyway I still enjoy. even though, didn't go any places. my best day!

thanks bi~ :)

thinking in a positive way, this way let me know your true color? if everyone really hate me, why do they still talk to me? is it very fake? if u think the way that i talk hurt everyone, don't u think that the way u talk also hurt people too. I can't stop myself to talk this way, unless I just shut my mouth, if this is the way u want.

even though I always complain, but I am still happy with what I have. so I doubt u will think this way. I only can say sorry, and I will just shut my mouth.

year 2011 is ending real soon. I am glad to have you, and I sorry to lose you.

resolution: I want to go oversea (even though no one is going with me), might going alone.
will fking save 10k.

this kind of days, how long I still have endure. I really dislike it so much till I treat it as hotel. I feel numb and sad. I suppose to have a good r/s with my parent. but until one day...u came back. ended up, I distance with my parent.

why the fuck you are back? I miss those days when I can sleep alone. the room is mine. but now, I only sleep at my room. other than that I was stuck in living room.

the noise you make, the sound you make, the volume you talk. and you just think that everyone in this house is dead. u r just fking rude. I don't understand why you have to close the cabinet with a loud sound or perhaps you are dear?

I really hope one day I can say "FUCK YOU" to you!!

thankful that I still have a bunch of friends. Vanessa who gave me a surprise for my bday. thanks buddy! my beloved gf, they are always there for me! and of cuz my cutest bf, who always scold me and making happy. thanks~ I know I can do it.

I nv think of anything bad, but just to
hope that she can change that all.

suddenly just feel like blogging. haha. tml have to work again. how I wish got lots of money now. don't need to worry about money stuff. sian~ but guess I won't have this kind of life.

nowadays I wonder if I was thinking too much. was telling bf that I might have cancer.... blah blah blah. I really scare that I will have illness. now my hair start to drop a lot. my gum is getting weaker. back always pain. what's wrong with me? :(

last thing: when can she be change? i really miss those days that I can sleep alone, without anybody disturb. but now, seriously I hate it ttm. is not that I don't like home, I just don't like to share a room with her. zzzzzz~

a question to myself: what is a home to me? I couldn't answer when I think of this question. I don't talk to my brothers, parent or even sister. is not that I don't want to talk to them. is just that I don't like to share the room with her. because she will treat the whole room like I am invisible. making noise like nobody business. so many years, she didn't change at all. I pissed off so
many times, but what the use. i will
just forget easily. of course I wasnt the best too. I have attitude too.

but I just kept quiet at home. didn't share out anything to them. I just feel distance from them. yes, is hurt but what to do.

all I wish is to move out of this house. will give parent monthly allowance, that's all.

sometime i just hope she faster get marry and move out. I will be more happier. I got no choice and have stay over at bf's house every weekend. staying with this kind of person, how long a person can endure? seriously I think none.

fk, family issue again.

what a day!

sometime I just wish to be alone. where there won't be any troubles.
anyway, won't be sharing it out too. I will forget it.

I have lost all my friends and I know it. time couldn't go back anymore and eventually I will be alone. yeah~ this is my life. I better start to do something before the worst could have happen.

since I alr waste alot of time, I will have to go back and learn driving again. back to those days.....

I really wish I have lots of money. first to buy house, and live alone. second is to buy lots of things that I want. third is to learn whatever shit want. and many more.

seriously, I don't know what to do. :(

today is a ph. went over to bf's Hse to stay. as mj girl will fetch me to buy some stuff for her wedding. ended up we went to her house and play mj. -.-

after playing 2 pok of mj, she fetched me back to bf's house. like a shiok. :) have a nap with bf till 7 pm. slack and went to hg mall to have late dinner. we realize is too early and he suggest to
go to his house and slack awhile. so
I agree and went back to his house. watch running man, and we 2 laugh like a idiot.

around 11.15pm, he send me to take cab. and went back home after that. this is how I spend my ph today.

I really feel so loved by you. ;)
thanks bi~

is Monday morning, 12 am. zzz~ got to work later again, sian. but wed is a ph.

but still have to wake up early on wed because have to buy wedding stuff, but I am so lazy to go out on ph. just want to nua at home. haha

glad that bf send me home even though I beg him. -,- but I know he will send me home when I ask him to do, :) thanks bi~

shall sleep now. can't wait for my pay day. don't even know what I spent this whole month. money keep spending like nobody business. zzz~ gonna save for my taiwan trip next year.

finally get to watch real steel. super cool and awesome can. love Hugh jackman ttm. :)

friend's wedding in 3 weeks time. quite excited about it. cuz is my first being a Jie Mei. haha. hopefully it will be fun and grats to her. :)

I want to go oversea. next yr bkk and tw. alright, hopefully I can go and him too, haha.

I don't understand why. just a simple thing is to put the clothes to washing machine and hang it yet no fucking person doing it. I also need to work leh. wtf. mum come back only put the blame on me cuz I am the laziness. like hello~ iron clothes also me, wash clothes also me. all come home early also don't want to do. one word: selfish!!!! seriously i hate it and pissed off.

enough of my complaining. sian. dont know what to get for my phone. shall I wait or buy? hmmm..

weekend is ending soon. :( I hate it the most. :(

I really miss those day when we could actually talk for hours, play and joke around. but I guess things won't be the same anymore. i won't ask for more, just hope things will be like last time. feel so stranger now.

I want to go bkk. anyone want to go with me? hmm..shall save money first. got to do lots of things next year. and everything need money money money. zzzz~

actually a fight/quarrel is good. make each other say out their feelings. still cry over it, not because I am sad. just cry because I feel like crying. -.- sound a bit lame but is true.

after all, everything back to normal~ happy go lucky. although something I hope it can go back to how we started, how we were teasing each other. those days were fun and loving. haha..but now still fun and loving, it just in a different way. miss those days~

thanks bi!
although u suck in some way. but u still give me joy.
let work hard together!

I tot it will be a good day for me. but it turn out to be so suck. :(

anger words are always hurtful. and I will remember what you have said. whether is your anger word or what, I believe it is from your heart. thanks for telling me.

so many things I wanted to do. shall save up so money first. plan for lots of activity for myself. haha..hope to learn some skill. study and oversea.

nobody is at home now, except my dad. home seem to be so quiet. suddenly feel so lonely~

there are so many things I wanted to say. just forget it. nth change. :(