thinking in a positive way, this way let me know your true color? if everyone really hate me, why do they still talk to me? is it very fake? if u think the way that i talk hurt everyone, don't u think that the way u talk also hurt people too. I can't stop myself to talk this way, unless I just shut my mouth, if this is the way u want.

even though I always complain, but I am still happy with what I have. so I doubt u will think this way. I only can say sorry, and I will just shut my mouth.

year 2011 is ending real soon. I am glad to have you, and I sorry to lose you.

resolution: I want to go oversea (even though no one is going with me), might going alone.
will fking save 10k.

this kind of days, how long I still have endure. I really dislike it so much till I treat it as hotel. I feel numb and sad. I suppose to have a good r/s with my parent. but until one day...u came back. ended up, I distance with my parent.

why the fuck you are back? I miss those days when I can sleep alone. the room is mine. but now, I only sleep at my room. other than that I was stuck in living room.

the noise you make, the sound you make, the volume you talk. and you just think that everyone in this house is dead. u r just fking rude. I don't understand why you have to close the cabinet with a loud sound or perhaps you are dear?

I really hope one day I can say "FUCK YOU" to you!!

thankful that I still have a bunch of friends. Vanessa who gave me a surprise for my bday. thanks buddy! my beloved gf, they are always there for me! and of cuz my cutest bf, who always scold me and making happy. thanks~ I know I can do it.

I nv think of anything bad, but just to
hope that she can change that all.

suddenly just feel like blogging. haha. tml have to work again. how I wish got lots of money now. don't need to worry about money stuff. sian~ but guess I won't have this kind of life.

nowadays I wonder if I was thinking too much. was telling bf that I might have cancer.... blah blah blah. I really scare that I will have illness. now my hair start to drop a lot. my gum is getting weaker. back always pain. what's wrong with me? :(

last thing: when can she be change? i really miss those days that I can sleep alone, without anybody disturb. but now, seriously I hate it ttm. is not that I don't like home, I just don't like to share a room with her. zzzzzz~

a question to myself: what is a home to me? I couldn't answer when I think of this question. I don't talk to my brothers, parent or even sister. is not that I don't want to talk to them. is just that I don't like to share the room with her. because she will treat the whole room like I am invisible. making noise like nobody business. so many years, she didn't change at all. I pissed off so
many times, but what the use. i will
just forget easily. of course I wasnt the best too. I have attitude too.

but I just kept quiet at home. didn't share out anything to them. I just feel distance from them. yes, is hurt but what to do.

all I wish is to move out of this house. will give parent monthly allowance, that's all.

sometime i just hope she faster get marry and move out. I will be more happier. I got no choice and have stay over at bf's house every weekend. staying with this kind of person, how long a person can endure? seriously I think none.

fk, family issue again.