Forget it man! I will get a life by myself.
September is too much happening for me to handle.
Thanks for giving me such a good memories and now everything is gone.
Happy moments won't last long.
I really agree with it.

After sometime, i will still be going back to my life which belong to me.
Lonely and easy life. =D
Seeing you guys happy, and i will be happy.
No matter what, just find me if you guys got problems.

I saw a person just change too easy when that person got whatever it needs.
I treasure this friendship alot alot alot.

Back from genting trip. =D
Long story ar. LOL~ Read it if you wants to. =.=

18 Sep 10
Suppose to meet up with jy to have mj session but we don't have enough player. So we decided to cancel it. Was rotting at home while waiting for xl and rx to come to my house. Both of them reach my house around 10, 11 plus. Had mac for supper. Slack and chit chat at my room till morning.

19 Sep 10
My dad fetch us to lavender MRT and surprising those guys reached eariler than us. =.= Once in a life time. LOL. Queue up and got our bus no and seat no. The bus moved off around 6.50am. Reached genting around 12pm. Through out the journey, I guess I was the only one who didn't sleep at all. Hahaha... Maybe I just too excited. =O Reached genting and everyone was excited, weather was so cooling. Hmm..queue up for our hotel room no and had KFC for our lunch. I was so tired that I forgot I order enough chicken for everyone yet I went to queue up again. =.= KFC burger suck TTM~ Waste my money. Back to the place where we need to queue up for our hotel room key. I requested for connecting room, but we reached our hotel room then we realise that our room doesn't have connecting room. And we have to go down to the lobby to change again. Something bad happen. I felt sorry... =( Change room and everything settle down, decided to check whether we are able to play outdoor theme park. Start playing from 5 pm. Played all those thrill ride, see each other "scare" face, hear each other shouting....Was lame but is fun. =)

Went back to hotel, bathed, slacked and all of us was exhausted. Dragged ourself to have dinner. LOL~ Dinner was suck, expensive and I couldn't finish it. Walked around and went back to hotel room. Everyone fall a sleep around 10 plus.

20 Sep 10
Saw rx went to toilet at 5am plus, and was awake after that. We 3 girls was discussing to have mac for breakfast, wake thai up and off we went to mac. We called wg's room and we thought they were still sleeping, ended up we called wrong number. =.= Had breakfast, walked around to other hotel. Backed to our room at 8am. When I went to bath, they were lazy to go sunway and told me that they don't feel like going. I start to feel like "WTF" and sian. Ok, i endure and told them if don't want to go then is ok. After awhile, wg came to our room and say jk doesn't feel like going all shit. And I started to cry, i know i am stupid but i planned it for that long and every shit just happen to me in few minutes time. That feeling was suck. But I didn't blame anyone. Leave genting at 11 plus, and lucky we got a cab just outside the hotel. Everybody just start to listen to MP3 excepted for me, rx and wg. We started to talk rubbish till we reached sunway. I love the moment when we could actually have time to chit chat to each other in the bus or cab because the feeling was different from singapore. I don't know why too. LOL!

Reached sunway and the first thing we did was finding "WI-FI" and A&W. We were like some mad person when we saw there is Wi-fi in the shopping center. Settle lunch and went to lagoon to have fun. Fuck, nearly got accident. But nothing happen too. =.= Leave the place at 6pm, went back to sunway pyramid to have dinner. And everyone was tired again. Brought cupcake for xl and wg belated birthday. Brought beer for celebration but somethings just cropped up so randomly. Suppose was happily yet................Fuck man! First time, i saw rx was so angry. I got nothing to say about that what things happen because I was in the fault too.

Went back to our room, everything settle down and they went to sleep. While me and thai was chatting till when he went to smoke. Something happen again. I wasn't taking his words seriously when i said "don't tell me you want to faint ar?" and he reply "ya". That time, i thought he was just joking. After i went to toilet, i heard a loud bang. I was so shocked and asked him what happen. He didn't reply me after a few second, he came and said "i fainted". FUCK~ I really got freaked out. Lucky nothing happen to him.

21 Sep 10
Last day at genting. I slept for like 1, 2 hour nia. And we had mac for breakfast again. =.= Is like our meals at genting confirm will have fast food. LOL. Back to hotel room, bathed, packed our stuffs and check out around 12 pm plus. Since the time was still early, they went to arcade while me and thai were waiting for them at mac. Aftermath, we had to take coach and leave genting. LOL~ I was seating with wg and i didn't know we could talk from the start till we reached singapore. 7 hours of talking. WTH right? It was fun to talk to him. Thanks for entertaining me through out the journey. =D

22 Sep 10
Thought that i can get up for work, in the end my body was just stuck in the bed. LOL~ So i went to get MC, yet i still went out to meet them for mid autumn festival. Was dragging myself to go out because i didn't eat for a whole day plus i didn't sleep enough too. Manange to survive through. LOL! People go holiday to enjoy but i was suffering. Hahaha... Didn't sleep well and eat enough. In the end, i loss 2kg. =(

Was fun with them, but hope no one will anyhow thinks lor. Enjoy life. Glad to say: I love my life now!! I never felt so happy before. No stress, no emotion, no unhappiness, no quarrel, no tears. Just laughter... =)


I am sorry. I am sorry for everything. I am the one who cause everythings to happen. I don't want anyone of you to get hurt. Don't need to bother whether i am sad or what, i just want you all to be happy. Because I know the feeling being hurts, is really painful. That's why I don't want any of you to have that feeling.

Sorry to those who worried for me. As i don't know i lost my appetite and my sleeping hours too. I will be alright soon~

I know what I should do!

Busy week.

And again, 4 days straight slept less than 4 hours. =.=
No bad, cause i still can endure and went to work too. =)
Went out on tuesday with rx, xl and thai for dinner.
Aftermath went to find jy at his house area, because he got chicken pox.
Was shocked when saw him.
He's in terrible condition.
But he still look cheerful. Faster get well, so we can go out and have fun. =D

13 hours more to go...
Excited for my genting trip.
Hopefully it won't rain, as i plan all the activities for so long..
And please nothing happen tooo.... *pray hard*

Just wondering something.
I just feel is weird but I hope i won't do something stupid.
Maybe i just watch too much drama. =.=
One sentence - 是你的就是你的
But i doubt this sentence will happen in my life again.
Good luck to whoever understand what i am talking about.

Treasure all the things i have now.
I believe it won't last long.

Off to pack my stuffs....

My leg still hurt.
Ok, i did something crazy again.
Went to find ruixian on saturday after her work.
And went to clarke quay to settle my dinner, slack and talk.
Leave that place at 12am plus.
Start walking from clarke quay to ps to orchard to toa payoh to potong pasir.
I reached home at 6am plus.
Super crazy~ Enjoy the walking trip. =D

Browse through my photos album and saw lots of ugly, funny, lame photos.
Remember the times we had our night cycling?
Remember the times we went to Ktv?
Remember the times how we celebrate each other birthdays?
Remember the times we had fun during our chalet?
Why can't i play hard during that time?
Treasure all the best memories I have now. =D

Sometime I feel bad for something.
I couldn't do anything or help up too.
All i can do is just keep quiet and see what will happen next.
I am really useless.
No matter what someone will get hurt in the end.
So is better not to do anything.
Just stop and stare!
Nobody will know what i am talking about. =)

Yesterday was an awesome day.
Did something new.
Went to airport first.
Suppose I was the one who accompany ruixian to buy something, in the end everyone tag along. =.=
Brought kite at mini-bite and took train to marina barrage.
Ok, is my 2nd time going there.
Is fun over there.
Because I did I want to do, FLY KITE!
Thanks for everyone going without complaining much. O.o
Enjoy alot last night. =)
Ton-ed over at my house.
But guess everyone was too tired, and they left my house around 6am plus.
LOL. There goes my public holiday.

Still haven eaten anything yet.
Don't feel hungry too.
What is happening to me?

Why am I bothering it so much?
Gosh!! I need something to distract me..
I need to train myself not to let people know what I am thinking.
Just Shut The FUCK Up.
Silence is golden.

Lack of sleep for this past few days.
Imagine i only get to sleep like 4 hours for the past 3 days.
I am dying soon. =(

Thanks everyone for saying "I look cheerful and happier than last time"!
Is the fact that i am happy now.
No trouble for relationship.
No more EMO!
Is good to live without trouble and emo.
That why I can be happy than last time. =)

Genting is booked and will be going there on next sunday.
Like finally after so long, I grant my wishes.
Thanks everyone to fulfill it with me. =)
Love you guys!!

Now is 7.51pm and shall sleep real soon but my bro stuck at the toilet for like 30minutes.
WTF~

SHAG DAY!
Firstly I only slept 4 hours for the past 2 days.
Secondly my instructor didn't stamp my driving for me that mean my $58 is gone.
Thirdly I fail my FTT just by a mark.
Just want to shout "FUCK MAN!!!"
=(

I realise that my relationship cause me to get closer with them.
If I am still together with him, I might not know that I have such a wonderful branch of friends.
Not only that, we get closer and we change too.
Our attitudes are much more good than last time.
I just want to say "Thank you" to him.
Thanks for saying goodbye to me. I grant the friendship that I always wanted. =)

Our genting trip is double confirm. Yeah~
Shall book the tickets tomorrow or thursday!

Ok, I have to sleep now.
Damn shag day.
Hopefully that person won't pester me tonight. LOL!

Random post.
I create a trouble and feel bad about it.
I am really sorry but i know you won't read my blog.
You plan everything and yet I spoil it. =(
Sigh~

Thanks for listening to my trouble and advice me what to do.
Shall forget everything, and live on happily.

FTT tomorrow and i haven even start studying yet.
Too tired for that. =.=
Plus tomorrow shall camp at CDC for half a day.
Driving + e-trial + FTT.

OMG! Just tell me how I can I don't fall in love with him.
He's damn too handsome. Plus cute, tall and everything good about him.
But too bad, I won't see him in person except in youtube. HAHAHAHA~
Was finding his pictures at google and make me so "high" while searching.
He is really damn too hot~ *huuu*

I think I should be getting a 2nd SLR camera.
Since I am a beginner, why don't just get a 2nd hand first and play around with it before getting a really SLR camera?
Should be a good idea. =)

Tomorrow is the day.......
1 September 2010.
Waiting for you!

At that time, we are not mature enough for each other.

Guess last week, I ton-ed too much and make me so tired.
Reached home at 6 am in the morning on sunday.
Slept and wake up at 12 plus.
Use computer, watch Hello baby. Damn funny show.
Out with my parents for breakfast/lunch/dinner at 3 plus.
Back home, help me dad to do something.
Off to bed at 6 pm.
Slept till 7am in the morning.
Was damn lazy to wake up.
Thought of switching on my laptop, but was too lazy to get up.
My Lazy Sunday. T_________T

I think everything is fated.
Why that show appear in tv and make remind me of my "last time" watching that show with him at his house? FUCK~
Forget it. Emo Guy. =.= LOL!

My colleague is really very irritating, keep pestering me to play mahjong.
I not that addicted yet.
Give me a life man! =)

I guess genting is a CONFIRM.
Wooooo~ I am really looking forward the day to arrive.
And I am excited to get my spectacle too.

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish to go back to a place much simpler than this

I broke my contact lens. =( Upset TTM~
Decided to get a spectacle because I can't see clearly during night.
Especially when i am driving, couldn't see the green arrow is turning left or right. T.T
Spent $275 for my spectacle, kinda of crazy. But is branded and i love the color too.
My eyesight is not that deep yet. So i have to save it back now. Hopefully~ LOL

Step up 3 was awesome.
Thanks for accompany me to watch.
I have download all the songs but can't find the last song.

Going to meet up with wen gui and thai loong for dinner. YEAH~
Is been a long time since i saw them.
2 weeks? LOL.

Salt is a awesome movie, but i guess there is part 2. LOL
Just finished online. =)

Went out with my colleague on saturday.
And I brought alot of things that day.
Real shopping spree for me.
Shall do it every month. It bright up my day too~

I just wonder why there is someone who is so petty, talk without using brain, everyone need to listen to what that person say..whatever is it mean that person is just too way selfish.
I don't want to bother what she/he is thinking.
Just wish that person good luck for itself future.
Don't change = losing friend

Somehow i was happy/shock when she told me that person thing.
Yeah~ I think i am desperate for it.
HAHAHA, i admit it. I AM DESPERATE!

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your loves to good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't goin no where
Baby long as you're here
I'll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

Everyday of my work, i will definitely talk about genting trip with my colleague. Not only that, will do research for it too. hahahaha~ That's my life during my work.

Let me think what should i blog about.
Life seem to be normal every single day.
I am looking forward to night cycling next week and my genting trip next month, hopefully this two outing can make it. =D
I wonder why that couple quarrel in FB? Is it so fun to let the whole world know they are quarreling. =.= Kinda of lame. Not a young couple too. LOL~ 他们开心就好!

Chose to keep quieter for something. =O Nvm, shall stick to my old plan.

This 2 days, was watching 2am leader video at youtube.
He entertain me alot.
The ways he dance, is so fucking funny. GO watch it if you want to laugh. =.=

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

I am super tired!
Saturday didn't sleep at all.
Sunday slept for 5 hours nia. Is not even enough for sat's sleep.
Chatted phone with ruixian and thai loong. Was a lame chat. LOL!
Is my first time talking to both of them on phone.
Suddenly i feel that thai loong is such a talkative person.
Maybe he had open his heart to us, that why he talks alot. LOL!
That's good. =D
Chat for like 1hr 50 minutes, from 12am plus till 2am.
That's why i am so shag for today.

Finally my colleague add me in fb, shall show you all next meet up.
She even went to tell the guy about me. =.=
She seem to treat me very good, but from what i heard from thai and xl make me freak out leh.
Anyway I need to protect myself too.
Once bitten, twice shy.

I am mad!
We are mad!
Seriously damn fucking mad!
Only those one was toning will know why. LOL~
I feel that toning session can make us understand better.
Because we can talk lots of heart to heart chat.
Yup, is great to have them as friends. =O
Love them TTM!

I feel I am really useless, seeing you have trouble I don't know how to help you.
Still remember that time, you were so concern about me and my relationship life and wanted to ask me out but i was so stubborn.
And now you have trouble, i couldn't help you at all.
I am really a useless friend.
Sigh~ Making you happy when we meet up that is only thing i can do.
But just sometime you ignore. -.-
I really don't wish to see you crying for work again.
Is really don't worth it. You are a person who can suffer toughness and smart, i believe you can find a job easily. Is just that whether you want to try anot. Every job is the same, but don't just see the money nia. You are still young, and you also need to enjoy your life too. This job make your life so fucked up, and you also miss out alot of fun with us too.
This is just a advice to you, and i know what you thinking of.
As a friend, I REALLY doesn't want to see you suffering for this job.
Just one last thing, make up your mind and just do it.

I got to say i HAD let go of the relationship.
So don't come ask me stupid question. LOL~
I admit that starting of the break up, I still think that he will come back to me one day. But I don't have the mindset now.
I really really doesn't think about him anymore.
Just like the video he post at FB, I think the words are true and i went to "like" it =.= Doesn't mean anything.
I open up my heart everything, seeing through everything......

Woolala~ Going out with usual gang again.
Is alright to meet up with same people every weekends.
Because i LOVE them! LOL!
And i not going to bother what they going say about my dressing all this.
Cuz they are GAYS after all. LOL~
Troublesome gays!!!!

Yesterday meet up with boss and rx after work, is a awesome outing too.
I love them TTM!
They make me life bright up.
I think is the first time we had MAC for dinner.
Sit there for like at least for 45 minutes, talk lame thing!
Yup, doing/talking lame things are always what we do.
Meeting up with them are the best!
And I realise a quarrel can the friendship more better and treasure.
Just like me and Boss! Although the quarrel are DAMN stupid, but luckily it didn't spoil our friendship. And make treasure this friendship more than last time.
友情万岁!!!!

Today finally did a thing after 1 month plus. I remove all our photos in my room and put it somewhere that I couldn't see. Lol. Is kinda of random!

Talked to jy's sister regarding online contact lens, in the we brought at difference blogshop. Lol! Lame~

I don't know what to write anymore. I still looking forward next month! Hopefully by the time, everything could settle down and start refresh!

Ok, nite everyone. Gonna wake up early tomorrow. =)

Was reading this while working

Here are some tips on what you should do in the early days of a breakup to let the healing begin.

1. Avoid him for at least a few weeks. Seeing your former flame can bring out emotions and may cause you do to or say something you will regret. - I don't have former flame. =.=

2. Talk about your feelings with close friends. Get everything out so you won’t hold it inside. Your friends may get sick of hearing you talk about the situation but you need to let out all your feelings and thoughts. - My friends are obviously sick and tired of hearing the same old thing. =.=
3. Cry if you want to. It’s OK to cry over a loss. Don’t hold back, let the tears roll, but do it in a safe and private place. - Safe? How safe?LOL. =.=

4. Let go of mementos. Put aside or give away anything that reminds you of the relationship. Hide them out of sight so he will be out of mind until you’re able to remember the relationship without longing for it. - I am just simply to lazy to do it. =.=

5. Focus on all the things about your ex that drove you crazy, turned you off, or you just found plain annoying. It’ll make you feel better to remember your former flame was not perfect and there are things you won’t really miss about him. - Yeah~ Alot of things!

6. Think about the mean, cruel or rude things your ex may have done in your relationship. Really give these things play in your memory. Remind yourself that somebody who truly cared for you would not have done such thoughtless things and tell yourself you’re better off without that kind of ego-crushing behaviour in your life. - YEAH! I totally agree!!

7. Maintain a strict no contact policy and stick with it. Don’t pass notes through friends. Don’t make any calls. Stay away from instant messaging or texting on your cell. Avoid all contact until you are totally and completely sure you no longer want to be with him. It’s the only way you can move on once and for all. - I already move on without him. =)

I think I am abit emotion about yesterday stuff.
After thinking for a day, I think that is none of my business.
Because I don't have the right to control his life plus if any girls want to throw herself on him, is already got nothing to do with me.
And I only care for him as a friend that's all. =D

Fuck my day! My hand got lots of small paper cut.

I am sorry to say that I need to make my twitter private.
Because of some personal reason.

Was very pissed of at that thing.
Why so suddenly? After we broke off, she started to do it.
I really damn pissed off.. Fucking slut~
Luckily he didn't do anything, if not I don't know what I will do.

I need Courage pill, can anyone buy/do for me?

What a national day! LOL~

Let's blog what happen for my long weekends.
Saturday 070810
Meet up with xl, jk, wg and jy, went to Paragon to pass rx charger first.
Then took bus to PS, walked to Left foot shop, but saw a shoe i like yet don't have my size anymore. *suck thumb*
Back to PS and settle our dinner at Cafe Cartel, food was okay but services damn FUCK! Still have to pay service charge. WTF!
Took tickets and wait for our movie to start.
Watched The Last Airbender, storyline suck and is just the effect of the fighting is too awesome.
Took NR6 to my house here and slack till 6am in the morning.
HOME SWEET HOME!

Sunday 080810
Stay at home till 6pm and went out to have dinner with my parents.
Aftermath, my dad drop me at kallang MRT and i took cab to my colleague's friend house at tampines.
Play mj from 9pm till 2am.
Took cab home.
Slept at 3am.

Monday 090810
Is national day! Kinda of sucks.
Went out with my mum.
Brought 1 tee and 1 dress.
Went back home around 6 pm plus, and watch National Day with my dad and my bro.
Was saying about the army stuffs.
Is weird because last time he was the one who tell me about the army stuff but no longer now. =(
Brought KFC and wanted to get back home to see JY performance, but I missed it! FUCK!

I really really miss those life. Be it is happy or sad. If I have a wish, i hope everything could just stop there. I was so damn hoping to see u again. I don't know why too. I thought, i thought, i thought...Everything is just I thought, but do things will happen on me again? I doubt so. I can't see any futures in my life anymore. I can't see my fate too. I don't know this will take how long. Or is it because I don't have a new love and that why I keep thinking about him?

People will just think, why do i still all this shit thing again and again. I don't know why too. I just want to blog out my feelings that all. My life still damn FUCK up! Can't change to a better one. SIGH! Fuck!!!!!!!!!